心累

有些路很远， 走下去会很累。可是，不走，会后悔。

原来要坚持，真的很难。
尤其是对一些你并不喜欢的东西坚持。

不知不觉，我已经来了纽西兰一年多了，
回头看看，不知道这一年来，自己是怎么熬过的。
有时候坚持真的很令人崩溃。

心累了，也不知道要找谁说。
这种累，真令人难受。

思念

不知不觉我已经和你半年了·，
也和你“同居”了3个月。
我们已经开始习惯有彼此在身边。
最近我突然想家了，便决定回去一个星期。
果然不出我所料，我真的很想念你。

不知，你是否也是如此想念我？
 我猜是吧。

得知你最近好像很忙，几乎天天都很迟下班。
好想找你聊天，以解我对你的思念，可是我又怕打扰你工作，打扰你休息。
不过我希望你不要太操劳，要给予自己适当的休息。

说真的，回来这几天，我超不习惯的。
已经习惯你的陪伴，你的味道，在这里完全找不到。
我想我真的是中了你的毒瘾，呵呵！
今天，看回我们之间的照片，看我录下你的video，很感触。
好想拥抱你，告诉你，我很想你！

再多三天吧，我们就可以再聚了。
好期待。。

阶段

最近觉得我好像进入了人生另一个阶段,
就是工作.
有点不习惯, 可是还是要开始适应了.
难怪人人都说读书还要好,因为工作的压力远远超过读书的压力.

不过,
想到即将和心爱的人一起经历这个阶段,就莫名的兴奋.
有点觉得太快,好像都好顺利.
让我觉得有点难以置信.
不知不觉我们都有一点倾向,就是开始会对未来有一点计划.
虽然只是很表面,但是都觉得好开心.
总感觉到我们可以长久,然后慢慢实现我们的计划.

目前为止,我们都有好多计划,等待着一起实行.
譬如说纽西兰Working Holiday, 一起去旅行, 然后上槟城工作.
这些种种都会创下你我之间的会忆.
虽然过程我们有很多不同的可能性,但是无论如何哪一个结果, 我们都会欣然接受并往前走.

我好喜欢一起怀恋我们之间创下的回忆, 多么甜蜜.


能够和你一起,让我觉得很幸福. 谢谢你

Lucky

From the first day I met you,
I never thought that I will fall for you, that the dream guy that I always want to have it.
It really happened.. it is so unexpected and suprising.

Although the first time i confessed, I get rejected and I felt that we really cannot make it.
But at the end we can make it, I am so so so happy, I don't know how to describe how happy am I.

I felt like god is too good for me, that I feel I am so lucky to meet you.
Everything that you done for me, I am so touching and unforgettable. And I really thanks that your parents din object about us and treat me so good.
Besides, I also din thought of that because of you I know what is love, and the changes that toward you, is so automatic so lovely.

For the past few years, long distance for me will never be a problem, but somehow now i wish to see you everyday, before sleep and after wake up. Traveling together to the dream land that we always wanted to go, create more and more sweet memory.

For me, all these is just like a dream, if it is I wish that I will not wake up from this dream, it is so beautiful and wonderful dream.

Somehow I have a feeling that we can last long ( although it is not really rational thinking) but currently all I have is this kind of thinking, that we can make our dreams come true.

I love you so much. Thanks for everything <3 br="">

决定

这一次，我又再次的狠狠伤害了他但也同时的伤害自己。
我真的很想他，从来就没有人就对我那么好。
就因为这个残酷的世界，金钱挂帅的世界
我做出了一个意想不到的决定，就是与他分手。
四年多的感情就这样结束了。

已经过了几个星期，我忘不了他。
任何事情都可以让我想起他，我们拥有太多美好的回忆了。
有时我在想我为什么那么懦弱，为什么不能坚持下去。

这几天看见许多FB的link说什么好男友好老公的条件，
他全部都符合了。
身边的朋友，个个都觉得很可惜。
但是我又不想伤害我的父母，
就这样，再一次的伤害他。

我多么想你出人头地以后再回来找我。
可是我知道我们已经不可能了，经过这一却，我们已回不到过去。
希望你可以找到一个比我好的女孩，懂得珍惜你。
不要因为我的自私，让你觉得爱已没有了意义。

好想告诉你，我想你，不知你过得怎样了。

Confused

Today, I dont know why start to miss him.....
It make me EMO.
I feel not used to it which I din receive any msg from him.
So i try to text him at first he got reply, but at the end he say tired and went to slp d.
At this moment, I really feel abit sad.
I just confused, dont know whether is I used to be with him that why i start to miss everythings or I still love him.
I really confused with what I had decided, whether I will regret or not.
Did I make wrong decision?
I really dont know.

Now I start with another guy.
Its total a new experience, which is totally different with what the first him treated me.
Sometimes I feel so uncomfortable, I dont dare to anyone abt it to avoid ppl accusing me that " told you! u are making wrong decision, u will regret!"

But if I regret, I really feel shame to be back with him.
I just feel that i dont deserve him to be so good to me, cos i already hurt him twice, very deeply.

I admit that I not a good girl which deserve him to be good with me.
I know he is still love me he will wait for me...

Will I regret?
Maybe... 

Exam + stress

I am now a year 2 semester 2 student,
don't know since from when, i think that i am feeling phobia toward exam.
i feeling extremely stress when having exam,
i so scare that i couldn't make it or get a bad result.
i am so stress about it,
but those who around me that also having exam,
they seem like so easy about it, they not stress like me..
i dont know whether is my problem or what?
sometimes i just feel like give up,
but u sure say i still got 1 more year, just bear with it.
but when i know that my internship is doing with my FYP,
i feel so disappointed as i really dont know i can make it anot ><
sigh....
who can help me...
i just dont wan so stress like that...
it seriously affect my emotional badly...
hard to fall asleep and hard to concentrate on my study